Thawing the Bits and Bytes

I honestly cannot remember the last time I worked on any of my other websites other than it being before Spring.  At one point in time, I had over 40 domains in my web portfolio (no where near all of which were developed into websites).  Slowly but surely over the past five years, that number has been dwindling down as I stop renewing domain names.  I will continue this over the next two years as I let more of them expire down to just a few.

Since my surgery this Summer, I have undergone a major mental shift which seems to have removed the last of the mental roadblocks I had.  Up until a few years ago, the reason I had such a large web portfolio was because I had a lot of great ideas I wanted to implement.  I unfortunately spent hours upon hours planning, researching and developing those ideas – but very few hours actually implementing any of those ideas.  I seemed to literally “freeze” and not be able to take the next steps even though I was well equipped with the skills, tools and knowledge to do so.

Within hours of awaking from surgery, the thaw began.

While I should not fully credit surgery with this mental shift, it was certainly a major catalyst.  My career change and undertaking the healing courses and work I have been doing over the past year have also greatly attributed both to the mental shift and also to a quick, pain free surgery recovery.

There have been a lot of “ah ha” moments as to why I was “frozen” for several years that have come up in my healing sessions.  Moments that have allowed me to further validate my career change and not hold any regrets about it.  Two words that keep coming up are “environment” and “expectations”.  My sessions have helped me to identify and remove some of the impact that “environments” and “expectations” have had on my self confidence and ability to even “try” to do things which lead to me being “frozen”.  I believe it was worded as:

“It is easier not to play than to come in second”

which initially did not make any sense because I truly feel as though I am okay with not coming in first.  The being “easier not to play” really resonated with me.

Over the years, I have forced myself to sit down and create a list of what I have accomplished.  Doing so helps me to invalidate those whose words have had such a major impact on me.  I was literally “frozen” the last few years of my tech career rendering me completely useless at times.  There were days I could not get my work done – if it did not get done, it could not be criticized.  Even now, after I have moved on from said career, I still have a really hard time accepting that I really did great work during my tech career and will continue to work on this during my healing sessions.

As I write this post, I cannot help but question and wonder now that I have undergone a career change, what value there is in continuing on with some of my projects and will need to re-evaluate.  One of the projects was as much about the project itself as it was for me to be learning new client-side scripting languages which is now a bit of a moot point.  I have already spent hundreds of hours programming and will likely keep it up as a hobby because I really do enjoy programming.

This is my horoscope (I’m on the cusp of Gemini and Cancer) I read just before handing in my notice to my previous employer:

Whatever risks you take you will succeed brilliantly.  What would you do if you knew you could not fail?  Do it now!

Have you ever changed careers?  Was it a clean break moving forward or did you hang on to pieces of that career moving forward?  Have you thought of changing careers and not know where to begin?  What is holding you back from doing so?

If I can give one piece of advice, do not let money hold you back!

Back to Work in September

It’s official.  I am (finally) heading back to work after the Labour Day weekend!  I have always been drawn to the place I will be working at.  I have taken courses and have my specialized kinesiology appointments there.

In the Spring, I heard that their Office Manager was moving away to the coast for their partners work.  This was around the time I had gotten my date for surgery and because of that, I figured it was not a job meant for me and was disappointed that I could not apply.

A few months passed and I assumed they were no longer moving because they were still working in the office.  I recently found out that they are still moving and that the person they were to hire for the position was no longer available.  I was instantly excited at the thought of applying!

After talking to my partner and thinking about it for a few days, I officially submitted my resume.  We both felt it was a great opportunity for me to get my foot into the Health and Wellness industry and I had high hopes there would be other opportunities involved in being employed there.  The job as it currently stands is mostly being an office administrator who books appointments, answers the phones and maintains the office.

I had coffee with the owner and we talked for over an hour about the job as it currently stands, what they would like to offload of their own duties onto me and my easing into being a practitioner there as well as a few other potential opportunities.  During my 12 year tenure as a web developer in a corporate environment, I had always wanted to put more of my business skills to use then was allowed in any job role I had.  There are plenty of opportunities within this job for me to put those business skills to use.  Those opportunities make me overwhelmed with joy and so very thankful that this job has materialized.  I am beyond excited about this job opportunity!

When I was on LTD from my last job, there was a lot that kept coming up about environment which at first did not make much sense to me (but now does).  During my interview, we talked about the fact that I did not want to work in an office again.  But we both acknowledged that there is a huge difference between working in a Health and Wellness Centre and working for a corporation.  As much as I loved some of my past jobs, the projects I worked on and the people I worked with, I think the ultimate demise in my career as a web developer, was always the environment I worked in.  Working in a corporate environment and the expectations that management had went completely against my own ethics and morale’s and why I eventually decided not to go back to work as a web developer for another corporation.  I will always work on websites but I do not want to work on anything that has corporate expectations again.

When I got home, I was of course more then coy in telling my partner that I had gotten the job and started after the Labour Day weekend.  We then went to celebrate by having lunch at the new Sammy J’s at Lake Okanagan Shopping Centre in West Kelowna which is just up the road from us.  I was absolutely famished when we got there and of course, didn’t think to take pics of our food before scarfing it down.  I did thankfully remember when our New York Cheesecake came:

New York Cheesecake

I will only be working 2.5 days a week at this point which is perfect.  I did not want to be working 40 hours a week and it is a bit of a commute to get to the office.  This will allow me time to finish up the rest of my Summer 2012 Goals, catch up on reading, studying and allow me to continue blogging, taking photographs and get back into exercising to lose weight.  I will also still be a part-time stay at home Dad as our son starts Kindergarten this year with “full days” from 8:30 until 2:30pm.

Now to find a new wardrobe for working!