Categorical Changes

One of the things that my psychologist told me when I was seeing her was that there tends to be clearing and/or cleaning which precede life changes.  I have been doing a lot of both clearing and cleaning lately (some of which started in the Summer).  Some of these changes might seem fairly minor while others, well, you should see the state of our office this morning.

Taxonomy of an academic

Major change

Last night we started the major chore of transforming our office into space that we can heal and do hobbies in.  It has mostly been a storage room and the biggest chore is trying to categorize my partner’s library of books into boxes for interim storage until we either move and have more space for them or she has an office on campus where she wants them.

I have been talking for a while about remaking the office into something more useful and last night we got started.  Even though I know making a huge mess is part of the process of cleaning, by the time we went to bed, I had questioned what we had gotten ourselves into.  But, I am looking at the end goal of having two desks together for all three of us to be able to craft at, open windows with natural light and space for me to have my massage table (rather then it being folded up in the living room).

Minor change

I have almost never been a breakfast person.  Brunch on the weekends after I have been awake a few hours, yes, but never one to eat anything upon awaking and before I start my day.  My breakfast since starting college has consisted of coffee and for a very long time, almost always something with white flour and white sugar.

The past two years when I have gone for coffee, I look in the food case and all I can think is “white flour… white sugar….” as I look at almost each and every item in the cooler.  Two evil things I would like to cut out of my diet.  I heard something not that long ago that has really stuck with me:

White sugar is fuel for cancer.

Given the amount of cancer in my family, I would like to avoid it in any way possible.  We buy a bag of white sugar a year for canning and the rest is either maple, brown or coconut sugar.

Over the past few weeks, I have started forcing myself to eat something before I am allowed to drink my coffee.  I have started taking coffee with me to work to save money and ensure I have something healthy to eat before I start drinking it.  I am now going out less for coffee on my “days off” when I study and am wanting to reduce that even further so I can save even more money and put to use this space we are creating in our house.

More clearing and cleaning are coming.  I have a stack of recipes printed out at home that I am hoping to make up today including ones that are for the freezer to easily be pulled out and thrown in the crock pot.  

With us creating space to be able to do hobbies, I am hoping I actually get my Boxer Quilt made this Winter!

Falling into a Holistic Healthcare Practitioner

This Tuesday will be my one year anniversary of managing the office.  The goal of my taking on the role of Office Manager was for me to become a Holistic Healthcare Practitioner while putting my business and technology skills to good use.

I feel I have done a pretty good job of managing the office with minimal oopsies which were easily fixable (for the most part).  Double bookings, ordering mix ups and forgetting to do some tasks have been my list of offences.  Probably the worst of which was ordering 12 cases of product (rather then 12 individual packages) and having to send back 10 of them.

Any “stress” (if I can call it that) in this job has been nothing in comparison to working in a corporate environment where a mistake or web server going down meant over $20,000+/hr in lost sales, potential death of a patient (from not being able to access medical policies and procedures and/or dosage information) or employees not being able to access paperwork needed for customers.  When I worked in a corporate environment, it was always in times of something going sideways that I realized the importance of the role I played for the corporation.  Stressed much?  Yes’m.

Yesterday was the third annual Be Your Best! Celebration at the office.  I was feeling fine before we had to go and then stressing to get brunch made and ready to go in time.  My stomach was in knots on the way there and I was feeling pretty nervous about the event because we really had no idea how many people would show up.

I started off taking a lot of photos before heading over to our Kinesiology Korner when another Touch for Health student showed up with their textbook.  I have to admit that I opened up my book, a question was asked and my mind went completely blank.  I had to call in some backup and then within minutes, went into Practitioner mode for three hours balancing people.

The feedback I was getting and the sessions I did were huge confidence boosters.  I have had hangups about becoming a Practitioner.  When I see someone doing a balance, I know exactly what is going on and I see when mistakes are made.  When I read my books, I understand and get the majority of it.  When I talk to people about what we do in our office, I actually sound intelligent.  But for some reason, a mental block goes up when I start to work on someone.  This was something we worked on in my last session and after yesterday, I feel those hangups might actually be gone.  Although there was one point that I almost called to ask for help, I did not and instead, pushed through it.

I think I may have finally pulled up my Practitioner Panties.

We have done a lot of work over the Summer clearing junk (including some very old junk) out of my closet.  My Summer has gone by in a blink with all that has happened.  The stress, the heartache and the tears were all necessary for me to get to this place of being ready to start accepting clients this Fall.  One of the hangups I was having was around feeling the need to be healthy and “healed” before being able to help someone else on their healing journey.

Mentally, I feel as though I am finally there.  With all the shifting that has happened over the Summer, I feel as though I have finally found true, blissful happiness.  The by-product of that has been closer to 20lbs that has come off of my body.  I feel pretty confident that over the next year the rest of the weight I have been carrying around for far too long will finally come off.

I have come to realize that healing is a lifelong journey and being able to help others on their healing journey is a gift that I have and is meant to be shared with others.

I am feeling very happy, confident and optimistic about life and my future.

Back to Work in September

It’s official.  I am (finally) heading back to work after the Labour Day weekend!  I have always been drawn to the place I will be working at.  I have taken courses and have my specialized kinesiology appointments there.

In the Spring, I heard that their Office Manager was moving away to the coast for their partners work.  This was around the time I had gotten my date for surgery and because of that, I figured it was not a job meant for me and was disappointed that I could not apply.

A few months passed and I assumed they were no longer moving because they were still working in the office.  I recently found out that they are still moving and that the person they were to hire for the position was no longer available.  I was instantly excited at the thought of applying!

After talking to my partner and thinking about it for a few days, I officially submitted my resume.  We both felt it was a great opportunity for me to get my foot into the Health and Wellness industry and I had high hopes there would be other opportunities involved in being employed there.  The job as it currently stands is mostly being an office administrator who books appointments, answers the phones and maintains the office.

I had coffee with the owner and we talked for over an hour about the job as it currently stands, what they would like to offload of their own duties onto me and my easing into being a practitioner there as well as a few other potential opportunities.  During my 12 year tenure as a web developer in a corporate environment, I had always wanted to put more of my business skills to use then was allowed in any job role I had.  There are plenty of opportunities within this job for me to put those business skills to use.  Those opportunities make me overwhelmed with joy and so very thankful that this job has materialized.  I am beyond excited about this job opportunity!

When I was on LTD from my last job, there was a lot that kept coming up about environment which at first did not make much sense to me (but now does).  During my interview, we talked about the fact that I did not want to work in an office again.  But we both acknowledged that there is a huge difference between working in a Health and Wellness Centre and working for a corporation.  As much as I loved some of my past jobs, the projects I worked on and the people I worked with, I think the ultimate demise in my career as a web developer, was always the environment I worked in.  Working in a corporate environment and the expectations that management had went completely against my own ethics and morale’s and why I eventually decided not to go back to work as a web developer for another corporation.  I will always work on websites but I do not want to work on anything that has corporate expectations again.

When I got home, I was of course more then coy in telling my partner that I had gotten the job and started after the Labour Day weekend.  We then went to celebrate by having lunch at the new Sammy J’s at Lake Okanagan Shopping Centre in West Kelowna which is just up the road from us.  I was absolutely famished when we got there and of course, didn’t think to take pics of our food before scarfing it down.  I did thankfully remember when our New York Cheesecake came:

New York Cheesecake

I will only be working 2.5 days a week at this point which is perfect.  I did not want to be working 40 hours a week and it is a bit of a commute to get to the office.  This will allow me time to finish up the rest of my Summer 2012 Goals, catch up on reading, studying and allow me to continue blogging, taking photographs and get back into exercising to lose weight.  I will also still be a part-time stay at home Dad as our son starts Kindergarten this year with “full days” from 8:30 until 2:30pm.

Now to find a new wardrobe for working!