Exit the Maze and Back to the Labyrinth

I want to be as happy and positive as possible on this blog but I have to admit, that I am feeling disappointed in myself right now.  I am hoping that writing this post is the kick in the ass I need to get back on track.

I was on medical leave for 10 months before quitting my last job.  This was followed by 7 months of no work and no pay.  The next 3 months I spent recovering from surgery.  December of 2010 to September of 2012 works out to about 21 months of no deadlines, expectations, stress and a whole lot of hours for daddyjake to do whatever he needed and wanted.  Over the Summer, I was ecstatic to finally be reaching my blogging, photography and other goals including my career change into Holistic Healing and Vibrational Medicine.

Then the first week of September hit me like a freight train.  I started a new job/career, my son started kindergarten, my partner back at UBCO, contract work and then me, still adjusting to my “new life” post surgery.  Before, I had all the time in the world to work on what I wanted and needed to.  As soon as back to school hit, that time came screeching to a halt which was coupled with a mental break down in the first week of it happening.  My health has also slipped due to the stress including me gaining 10lbs.  I feel as though I have been fighting a cold for the past 3-4 weeks and starting last weekend when we were away, I was (and still am) dealing with the spins and vertigo

So what am I disappointed in?  That I did something I swore I would never do again which now has me several weeks behind my goals that got pushed aside for it.  The last specialized kinesiology appointment I had, the metaphor came up of me literally, eating my own words.

In my last post, I was quickly trying to figure out where I was at with my goals and since then, have been thinking about them a lot along with what has gone on in my life over the past five weeks.

I have come to conclude that I have two major priorities right now:  becoming a practitioner (Crystal Healing and Touch for Health) and weight loss (while also maintaining my photography and blogging).  The latter two should be easier now that some of my time is being freed up.

Before our son was born, we did a Birthing From Within course and one tool the instructor had in the classroom, was a small mat that was a labyrinth.  She started off by asking what it was and then asking if people knew the difference between a maze and a labyrinth.  A maze is purposefully designed to confuse and not make it easy to find the exit.  A labyrinth on the other hand, you can only find the exit by continually moving forward.  Ever since then, I have wanted one tattooed on my right forearm to always remind me that the only way I can move forward in life, is by moving forward.

My son just turned 5 and I still have not gotten the tattoo and I keep saying, I am well beyond overdue for it.  Perhaps I should add this to my goal list so that I can finally get it inked on my arm.

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