This Tuesday will be my one year anniversary of managing the office. The goal of my taking on the role of Office Manager was for me to become a Holistic Healthcare Practitioner while putting my business and technology skills to good use.
I feel I have done a pretty good job of managing the office with minimal oopsies which were easily fixable (for the most part). Double bookings, ordering mix ups and forgetting to do some tasks have been my list of offences. Probably the worst of which was ordering 12 cases of product (rather then 12 individual packages) and having to send back 10 of them.
Any “stress” (if I can call it that) in this job has been nothing in comparison to working in a corporate environment where a mistake or web server going down meant over $20,000+/hr in lost sales, potential death of a patient (from not being able to access medical policies and procedures and/or dosage information) or employees not being able to access paperwork needed for customers. When I worked in a corporate environment, it was always in times of something going sideways that I realized the importance of the role I played for the corporation. Stressed much? Yes’m.
Yesterday was the third annual Be Your Best! Celebration at the office. I was feeling fine before we had to go and then stressing to get brunch made and ready to go in time. My stomach was in knots on the way there and I was feeling pretty nervous about the event because we really had no idea how many people would show up.
I started off taking a lot of photos before heading over to our Kinesiology Korner when another Touch for Health student showed up with their textbook. I have to admit that I opened up my book, a question was asked and my mind went completely blank. I had to call in some backup and then within minutes, went into Practitioner mode for three hours balancing people.
The feedback I was getting and the sessions I did were huge confidence boosters. I have had hangups about becoming a Practitioner. When I see someone doing a balance, I know exactly what is going on and I see when mistakes are made. When I read my books, I understand and get the majority of it. When I talk to people about what we do in our office, I actually sound intelligent. But for some reason, a mental block goes up when I start to work on someone. This was something we worked on in my last session and after yesterday, I feel those hangups might actually be gone. Although there was one point that I almost called to ask for help, I did not and instead, pushed through it.
I think I may have finally pulled up my Practitioner Panties.
We have done a lot of work over the Summer clearing junk (including some very old junk) out of my closet. My Summer has gone by in a blink with all that has happened. The stress, the heartache and the tears were all necessary for me to get to this place of being ready to start accepting clients this Fall. One of the hangups I was having was around feeling the need to be healthy and “healed” before being able to help someone else on their healing journey.
Mentally, I feel as though I am finally there. With all the shifting that has happened over the Summer, I feel as though I have finally found true, blissful happiness. The by-product of that has been closer to 20lbs that has come off of my body. I feel pretty confident that over the next year the rest of the weight I have been carrying around for far too long will finally come off.
I have come to realize that healing is a lifelong journey and being able to help others on their healing journey is a gift that I have and is meant to be shared with others.
I am feeling very happy, confident and optimistic about life and my future.