2013 Goals Manifestation

Midway through December, I started fleshing out what I want to accomplish in 2013 and made some tough decisions.  I was supposed to have taken two other courses in November, another five through May and that is only the first half of the year.  The courses would cost me upwards of $4,000 plus travel costs to Vancouver where they are offered.

I have had to accept the fact that I will not be taking any of them.  I cannot afford them which leaves me quite disappointed.  I am still holding out hope but most likely I will only be taking courses I can audit.

For 2013, I have decided to focus on mastering the skills that I have already fronted the costs for:

  • Crystal Healing
  • Touch for Health
  • Photography
  • Programming
  • Blogging
  • Weight Loss, Weight Loss, Weight Loss
  • Exercise:
    • Geocaching
    • Walking
    • Running
    • Ice Skating
  • Fishing
  • Learning more about Anatomy and Physiology

I am confident that in 2013 I will reach my Fitness and Weight Loss goals which includes changes to my diet and increased outdoor activities.  I am looking forward to getting back into fishing, geocaching, ice skating, walking and finally running!

I am hoping that by gaining confidence and experience with the skills and tools I have already acquired, it will allow me to increase my income as a Practitioner, Photographer and Blogger.  Thus far, I have made about 50 cents from my blogging!

Part of what took me so long to move on from my tech career, was finances.  I kept telling myself that I had to pay off my first career before I could start on a second.  The good thing is that I had a lot of transferable skills that I am applying as an Office Manager in a Health and Wellness Centre which has gotten my foot in the door of the industry.  Now I need to work on building up a practice as a practitioner.  The downside to having changed careers is that I currently make less then 25% of what I used to.  But I am hopeful that someday I will eventually surpass what I was making as a geek.

I really look forward to properly fleshing out, stating my goals and doing the work necessary to manifest them.  All of which I will blog about during 2013!

What are your hopes and dreams for 2013?  Do you write New Years Resolutions?  What successes and/or failures have you had with them?  What will you change in 2013 to be more successful?

Thawing the Bits and Bytes

I honestly cannot remember the last time I worked on any of my other websites other than it being before Spring.  At one point in time, I had over 40 domains in my web portfolio (no where near all of which were developed into websites).  Slowly but surely over the past five years, that number has been dwindling down as I stop renewing domain names.  I will continue this over the next two years as I let more of them expire down to just a few.

Since my surgery this Summer, I have undergone a major mental shift which seems to have removed the last of the mental roadblocks I had.  Up until a few years ago, the reason I had such a large web portfolio was because I had a lot of great ideas I wanted to implement.  I unfortunately spent hours upon hours planning, researching and developing those ideas – but very few hours actually implementing any of those ideas.  I seemed to literally “freeze” and not be able to take the next steps even though I was well equipped with the skills, tools and knowledge to do so.

Within hours of awaking from surgery, the thaw began.

While I should not fully credit surgery with this mental shift, it was certainly a major catalyst.  My career change and undertaking the healing courses and work I have been doing over the past year have also greatly attributed both to the mental shift and also to a quick, pain free surgery recovery.

There have been a lot of “ah ha” moments as to why I was “frozen” for several years that have come up in my healing sessions.  Moments that have allowed me to further validate my career change and not hold any regrets about it.  Two words that keep coming up are “environment” and “expectations”.  My sessions have helped me to identify and remove some of the impact that “environments” and “expectations” have had on my self confidence and ability to even “try” to do things which lead to me being “frozen”.  I believe it was worded as:

“It is easier not to play than to come in second”

which initially did not make any sense because I truly feel as though I am okay with not coming in first.  The being “easier not to play” really resonated with me.

Over the years, I have forced myself to sit down and create a list of what I have accomplished.  Doing so helps me to invalidate those whose words have had such a major impact on me.  I was literally “frozen” the last few years of my tech career rendering me completely useless at times.  There were days I could not get my work done – if it did not get done, it could not be criticized.  Even now, after I have moved on from said career, I still have a really hard time accepting that I really did great work during my tech career and will continue to work on this during my healing sessions.

As I write this post, I cannot help but question and wonder now that I have undergone a career change, what value there is in continuing on with some of my projects and will need to re-evaluate.  One of the projects was as much about the project itself as it was for me to be learning new client-side scripting languages which is now a bit of a moot point.  I have already spent hundreds of hours programming and will likely keep it up as a hobby because I really do enjoy programming.

This is my horoscope (I’m on the cusp of Gemini and Cancer) I read just before handing in my notice to my previous employer:

Whatever risks you take you will succeed brilliantly.  What would you do if you knew you could not fail?  Do it now!

Have you ever changed careers?  Was it a clean break moving forward or did you hang on to pieces of that career moving forward?  Have you thought of changing careers and not know where to begin?  What is holding you back from doing so?

If I can give one piece of advice, do not let money hold you back!

Uncertainty for 2013

By Spring 2013, there will officially be a Doctor in the house as my partner completes her PhD program.  The downside to this is that UBC has an unwritten policy of not hiring their own graduates which means we will more then likely be moving from Kelowna by next Summer dependent upon where she finds a job.  There is a slim possibility of us still being here but at this point, I am not getting my hopes up and mentally preparing for an upcoming move to somewhere I might hate even more then I did initially with Kelowna.

The first two years we lived here, I absolutely hated it and really wanted to move back to Vancouver.  The goal initially was for us to move here for the time needed for her to graduate and us to move back to the coast, pending a job, upon graduation.  But something I never thought would happen did about two years ago:  I fell in love with Kelowna.

Chin up

I found community, friends, a new career and so much about me has changed since moving to Kelowna – so much changed that it had me revolting against Vancouver once I finally settled into Kelowna.  I also underwent a lot of changes while I lived in Vancouver for eight years and I don’t know that I even “fit” there anymore.  One of my biggest fears about moving back to Vancouver, is raising our son there.

I will admit that I have been somewhat back and forth about wanting to stay versus moving back over the past two years.  There are so many pros/cons to being here versus there but the ultimate factor will be where my partner gets a job teaching and/or doing research.  My bigger fear is us moving Easter and further away from our friends and family.

There used to be one major con to moving away from Vancouver:  work in the technology industry.  Pay between Vancouver and Kelowna is disgusting:  I left Vancouver making over $30/hr with great benefits (100% unlimited chiropractor, massage, etc.) and started out in Kelowna making just over $21/hr with crappy benefits (80% to max of $500).

While it is always good to know that I have my tech career to fall back on, it makes my stomach turn just thinking about it.  The plus is that even though I am not yet making any money as a holistic practitioner, I am managing an office which means I would have that to fall back on, if not, being a barista which I also love.  I know that work wise I will probably never make what I topped out at in Vancouver ($100/hr on contract), I should hope to never have such a stressful job again because it was not worth the money.

While there is a lot of uncertainty about where we will be eight months from now, I am trying to view it positively knowing that change is good and that we will end up where we are meant to be.

I do have a few options for making money:

  • holistic practitioner
  • office administration
  • photography
  • blogging
  • barista
  • contract tech work (WordPress, php)

but there is always that fear of when and where the next pay cheque is coming from.

While I have only ever made money with three of the above, I am hoping that will change in the future.  One of the benefits to being self employed is that if you lose one stream of income, you have others to lean on.

In the meantime, I will continue working on myself, my blogging, my photography, building up my practice as a practitioner and touching up the house in the event that we do have to put our home on the market.